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This is a test post from flickr, a fancy photo sharing thing.
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So, after a year and a half of being show-less due to my utter fear of people, I am finally in a show...Candide. It's only a local show and someone I nabbed a supporting role, but it's a show. A good-launch point, though I'm still having the same issues. I still think I don't deserve to be there. And in my heart I know I do...but I can't stop feeling like I'm not good enough. Stupid social anxiety disorder (which I've actually been officially diagnosed with by the way, yay!) Yay, not so much because it's a great thing to have, but I'm so glad what I feel has a name. So I had a job I HATED (long story) from March- the very end of September. Now I only have a part timer at Lane Bryant due to my quitting (but I really couldn't stay any longer). Now I just have to make sure I don't become agoraphobic again. I think it'll be ok this time. As long as I keep myself busy. Hmmm. And Ooo, I'm gonna apply to grad school for theater education. I'm thinkin' Emerson or Boston U...why do I always end up in MA? I looked at NYU's (The rest are in the south or west coast) but I don't know if I want to school it in NYC. Hmmm.

C'est tout pour (now). Yes...since high school that's about all the bad french I have.

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The Oscars make me sick, but I'm oddly fascinated by them.
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I rejected from the NETC...so there goes $50 and well, I'm taking it harder than I thought I would. It said it recieved 1000 applications for 710 slots. Was I really that low on the totem pole? Were there not a bunch of kids who applied who've done less theater than me? I guess not having done a show in a year had something to do with it...

I just wanted an excuse to audition again, and now I feel rejected and more useless and worthless than I felt before.

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I think this is a parody...at least I hope it is.

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Someone on All That Chat suggested that Andrew Llyod Webber write a musical of Pan's Labryinth as it's "His Style"


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I think I'm the only one who thinks Children of Men was merely an intelligent action film rather than this amazing movie.

I was bored to tears. I like dark. I like dreary. I love future Clockwork Orange-1984-Brave New World type of films. This did nothing for me.

...nothing happened. It was mostly running away from people and a wonderful performance by Michael Caine.

Dreamgirls was dissapointing as well. It was "eh". A biopic like Walk the Line and Ray, both of which I thought were "eh" as well. Jennifer Hudson was only really good during AIATY and the rest she was fine...not great. Eddie Murphy was also good...but I don't really see how he was much different than many of his other films.

If any performance should be awarded it should really go to Anika Noni Rose.

Pan's Labrinth was really quite wonderful. Probably wouldn't make my top 10 list of all time, but really quite lovely, imaginative and beautiful, even if violent. I haven't seen Little Miss Sunshine, The Departed and Iwo Jima yet, but I think if they had filmed this puppy in English it could have had a good shot at best picture. I think it will win best foreign film.
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Uh...how do I not be anxious? Sitting home doing nothing is really not who I am. If I keep going like this I will become an agoraphobic.

Well I have an appointment with the "Drug Dr" this week aka psychitrist. We'll see if that helps at all.

Really, very small private schools are not for everyone. It took me two years to get over PDS and thrive at Hampshire.

Now I'm back and everything is worse than even high school.

*theatrical sigh*

I've been going through a period of deep ___ness:
anxious anxious
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